This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength…”
I see your heart and can feel your pain and disappointment that you missed the mark… once again. You need to stop putting such high demands on yourself. I am not doing this to you, but you are doing it to yourself. There’s a reason I have you in the place where you are right now… you’re learning. With learning comes knowledge, understanding, misdirection and mistakes. It’s a process to help you grow in your vision and your gifts. You can’t skip over any of the steps because then you wouldn’t be as prepared as you need to be. So relax and seek Me. Recognize opportunities as I lay them out before you… and step out in obedience. Grow in each of these areas so that I can take you to the next phase, but don’t beat yourself up over it. I’ll bring you another opportunity and experience so you can continue learning from them all. Step back and quiet yourself, listening to Me… trusting in Me will give you My strength to push forward.